• That Other Me

    The Most Homicidal Thoughts

    2000 That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. I want to kill my dog. I don’t. Not at all. I don’t. I definitely don’t. Fuck no. But the thought jags into my head. I’m lying on the couch, watching a comedy on TV. There’s nothing connected to this sudden violence. Nothing prompting it. Nothing in the same hemisphere. And yet here it’s appeared. I see it: I’ll strangle her until she falls limp in my arms. The compulsion to do so drives me with irrefutable certainty. But I try to refute, try to tell myself…

  • That Other Me

    OCD’s Intrusive Thoughts: My Unreal Reality

    That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. 1990 I am Les Zigomanis, I’m unemployed, I’m not a famous writer, I’m not rich, and I’m not married with a family. I have to prove to myself that I know this is my reality as a 19-year-old. I am Les Zigomanis, I’m unemployed, I’m not a famous writer, I’m not rich, and I’m not married with a family. I don’t know when it began, when I needed to start proving this to myself. No doubt, it’s a byproduct of the anxiety that’s grown through my teens, and…