Nothing Real Exists
1992 That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. I don’t know if the wall is real. I see it. If I walk over, I could touch it. I could feel it. Feel the plaster under my fingertips. Feel the texture against my skin. Feel its presence. But none of this proves that the wall’s real. Because it might just be what I’m imagining. Just as I’m imagining it’s there, I could imagine that it interacts with me – and the world around me – exactly as I expect it should. Which means I’d have to…
The Most Homicidal Thoughts
2000 That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. I want to kill my dog. I don’t. Not at all. I don’t. I definitely don’t. Fuck no. But the thought jags into my head. I’m lying on the couch, watching a comedy on TV. There’s nothing connected to this sudden violence. Nothing prompting it. Nothing in the same hemisphere. And yet here it’s appeared. I see it: I’ll strangle her until she falls limp in my arms. The compulsion to do so drives me with irrefutable certainty. But I try to refute, try to tell myself…