The Inexorable Day
That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. 2000 Awake. A blissful moment of nothing. Then … A thick, soggy, oily mess sitting in my head, clogging all rational thinking. The anxiety simmering, like some foul concoction ready to overflow. The aberrant thoughts that have nothing to do with reality. And then … Then … An acknowledgement of time. Of just how much of the day there is to survive. Because each hour, each minute, each second, is implicit with the danger that this is going to get worse. And worse might just become worst. I…
That Other Me
That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. 2016 I walk and walk and walk, taking a roundabout course from my home, unable to settle thoughts much too quick to be contained or moderated, the agitation from their mania pulsing through my body. Is this it? That’s a question growing increasingly prevalent in my forties – to have emerged from five years of severe agoraphobia, decades of anxiety and all these other mental health challenges, only to be here, much more capable in some ways but mentally unstabler in others; circumstantially unsatisfied, physically debilitated with chronic…