• The Other Me

    The Other Me

    ‘Looking For Answers’ vi. Although I had answers and eating correctly removed the spotfires of anxiety caused by dips in blood sugar, the answers led to an overwhelming fear that governed my life: maintaining the right diet, and eating every three hours. I had two different lists I couldn’t eat from – one a Fructose Intolerance list, another a Reactive Hypoglycaemia List. Some things were safe on one list but not on another, e.g. potato was safe on the Fructose Intolerance list, but not on the Reactive Hypoglycaemia list. I began seeing a new dietician who was lovely and assuring, and she also had Fructose Intolerance herself, so knew what…

  • The Other Me

    The Other Me

    ‘That Same Old Feeling’ ii. During the next week I adhered to a strict regime: I’d wake up, do some editing or writing, finish at 5.00, and then around 6.00 I’d take an hour walk. In the evening, I would totally relax – no writing, no editing, not even any reading; I’d just lay back and watch a movie and switch off. A week later, the head pains went. Even Dr Warren was surprised by my improvement. My victory was short-lived. Whilst the headaches didn’t return, the low mood creeped back in. Sometimes I’d feel bleak. Another night, I was drifting off in front of a courtroom drama on television…