Contemporaneous: Chapters 75 – 76
75. I don’t know why Melody’s come to the hospital with us, but then again I don’t know why I’ve come either. My existence unhinges Autumn – she cannot reconcile why everybody’s telling her that she should know me, but she doesn’t. It’s just a hole in her mind. I’m a hole. I don’t understand it either, unless it’s just that fucking rule Luca told me about – one thing would change. This is a pretty big thing to change, though, and unfair to change Autumn, rather than change me. When I didn’t remember Peta, that only impacted me. Autumn’s issue impacts her, her work, her family, and her world.…
Contemporaneous: Chapters 70 – 72
70. Once we get to the strippers, I moderate my drinking so I retain a better sense of self – I used to be good at this when I was younger. While everybody else was getting insensibly drunk, I’d take it easy, or even pour the beer out when people weren’t looking. It probably comes from a lifetime of anxiety – while drinking gives me a buzz and relaxes me, I don’t want to lose control. Stan pays for several lap dances – I can’t remember if it’s in the same order he did last time. But there’re a lot of different dances, like he’s determined to sample as many…