The Other Me
‘The Lurking Shadow’ vi. Departure was a battle with the fear of shortness of breath. My brother John drove me to the airport. Everybody in my family suspected I was going with Allie, even though we’d been broken up for months. When we got to the airport and she was nowhere to be seen, I found out later my brother rang my sister in-law, Christine, and expressed a fear that maybe I was flying up there to off myself in some way – like Nicholas Cage drinking himself to death in Leaving Las Vegas. My sister in-law checked the award on the net and found out it was for real.…
The Other Me
‘The Lurking Shadow’ i. A few days after Wolf died, Allie wanted to take me out to cheer me up. I told her I didn’t want to go out if we were just going to thrash out the relationship – again. She told me there wouldn’t be any thrashing but, somehow, that’s exactly what happened – for a couple of hours. And when things were thrashed out with Allie, they were rarely diplomatic. They were heated. Verbally violent, in a way that violence can be passionate. Now, as we argued, my head surged. The next night was little better. There was another argument. I felt my mind tearing in two.…