Agoraphobia: My Little World Too Big
That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. 1995 Home is safe. At home, I can control things. But … I need to go out. I almost have to try surprise myself with this decision. If there’s premeditation, it starts the countdown. I have only minutes I can survive out in the world, so even when I know I might need to go out, I just can’t alert myself to when I’ll do it. So I’ll do things to distract myself. To lose myself in some façade of normalcy. Write. Play a computer game. Read— And,…
That Other Me
That Other Me is a series that explores the immediacy and intimacy of various mental health episodes I’ve experienced throughout my life. Looking Everywhere I don’t remember a time in my life before anxiety. I do remember having too many thoughts, too big an imagination, and too wide a gulf between my highs and lows. The anxiety in my teens was a separator – it separated me from the other kids. I could stand with them. I could joke with them. I could pretend to be one of them – one of the humans. But inside, my mind raged, and sometimes it went inexplicably dark, delving into an unfathomable melancholy.…